frustrated

I was prescribed medication yesterday. mood stabilizers that should start working in 2 months.
My therapist (as opposed to the psychiatrist) doesn’t like the idea of medication. At all.
She has a point when she says diet and exercise help but find the part about “joining book clubs”, etc. . . . to help with my social problemsa bit dismissive and condescending.

I also find that I tend to accuse people of treating me this way when they are not. I really can’t tell.

She does also agree on getting a neurological evaluation. When asked for a psych eval (since I still don’t know if there is a diagnosis in process or already made) she told me that “I can do that” but I have not heard anything else on it.
She seems to believe more in the holistic approach and is a bit anti-diagnosis in my opinion. (Just based off of varying comments she has made throughout my sessions)

Today’s session seemed to be a complete waste of time. Too many awkward silences.

Perhaps my fault but I am not an active speaker nor do I know exactly how to answer the question “how are you feeling today” appropriately.
Seriously, I hate it.
Is that all that the therapists do, is sit there and say “how does that make you feel?” I don’t FUCKING know!! That’s why I am in therapy.
Maybe I should change therapists but I don’t want to go through all that shit with my insurance.